stellophiliac

i was very vaguely debating vcv because they're better quality but i do not have the time to put in that much effort

heeeere they are!

i need to redo some of the samples for pronunciation, but overall i think it's pretty decent! i'd also like to record another pitch for them since they don't sound great at higher notes. i probably have to edit some of the otos as well

i might record a voice color for them with my chest voice, but my chest voice is wildly inconsistent and i don't know if it'll fit them very well

also, i'm sick which sucks ass because my exams start very very soon!! hopefully i get better before then (':

i have a bandcamp now! there's only one thing there right now, but i'll hopefully be releasing a 4-5 track ep sometime this year

here's a short preview of the latest song i made for it:

i made the entire track last night after having milk tea. i rarely make music i'm proud of, so i'm very happy with this!

there's also some vocalsynth in the background, i used aphelia. i like their general sound, but they do have some slightly weird pronunciations

things i should be doing:

• studying

things i am doing:

• analyzing napstablook's japanese dialogue
• not studying

i'm okay at japanese since i lived there for a few years (日本で数年住んでいたので、日本語が少しできる。), but i'm not that good at it and don't really understand the art of intentionally using katakana. i know a little bit about using the language for characterization (ie. showing a character's personality) but only a little

my original understanding of napstablook's speaking style in japanese was:

• no kanji
• sentences end with katakana (eg. そうですヨネ)

i took a more in-depth look today, and it's apparently more complicated than this

all this dialogue is taken from this video

…ゴメン　なんか…

ジャマしちゃった　みたいだネ…

...gomen nanka... jamashichattamitaidane...

sorry... um... it seems like i interrupted you...

ごめん (gomen) is in katakana here for some reason? 邪魔 (jama)—which is usually kanji—is as well. at the end of the second sentence, ね (ne) is katakana, while だ (da) isn't.

キミのトモダチ…　かえっちゃっタ…

kimi no tomodachi... kaecchatta...

your friend... left/went home...

君 (kimi) and 友達 (tomodachi) are katakanized here, similarly to 邪魔 above. i can't tell if "かえっちゃっタ" is meant to be "帰っちゃった" though, which has kanji that isn't replaced by katakana.

どうしよウ…　せっかく　たのしそうニ　してたのにネ…

doushiyou... sekkaku tanoshisou ni shitetanonine...

what should i do... you seemed like you were having fun...

the kanji in 楽し isn't katakanized here, which doesn't seem to follow the above pattern, so there's definitely something i'm missing. also the particle に (ni) is katakanized in the middle of the sentence, but not in the phrase のに (no ni). strange

えっと…　ちょっと…あいさつしたかったダケなんダ…

etto... chotto... aisatsushitakatta dake nanda...

umm... uhh... i just wanted to say hello...

挨拶 (aisatsu) isn't katakana here, so my initial thought (that they katakanize all kanji) seems to be wrong.

えっと……………

etto.......

uuhmmm.......

えっと seems to be what they say in the japanese translation instead of "oh". just from my knowledge, i think that makes them sound more unsure/nervous than the dejectedness that's conveyed in the english version

here's the original text in english, by the way:

... sorry, i interrupted you, didn't i?

as soon as i came over, your friend immediately left...

oh no... you guys looked like you were having fun...

oh no... i just wanted to say hi...

oh no.................................................

i would do more but i need to study (i've been procrastinating all day)

hey, i'm stel ^{(she/they/it)}, an artist of all sorts. i like drawing and making websites, among other things!

journal info

i don't make access-only posts and don't plan to as of typing this, so i won't grant access to anyone unless this changes

my journal theme is by plainstyles, customized by me

what to expect here

• my short and long ramblings, re:
  • media i like
  • characters i like
  • things i'm making
  • the general goings-on of my life
• lots of (parentheses) and small text
• occasional sharing of creations

where else to find me

my main website houses most of my stuff. other relevant links can be found here

a quick note

i am uncomfortable with media that intentionally glorifies or defends relationships that are predatory, abusive, or incestuous. if you're proudly in favor of these types of media, i kindly ask that you don't interact closely with me or argue with me about these views

i am very pro-queer and pro-trans. i hope that isn't something i have to clarify here

perpetually EMBARRASSING for me

i've been working on a napstablook webshrine for a little bit! (ie. i started a few weeks ago)
i may like them a little too much... i am slightly embarrassed

i really liked the idea of making different things in their room lead to different pages, and it was fun to figure out! i downloaded the spritesheet from spriter's resource, and placed all the stuff by hand (that's why the music discs might be slightly off)

unfortunately that comes at the cost of not being able to resize the image on mobile, but i don't think it's a huge deal?

the music playing stuff took me too long to figure out (it's more advanced than you think!) (well, not actually. maybe i'm just an amateur at javascript). i had to factor in whether a file is already playing, which file that is, etc... i think it's worth it though
did you know that ghouliday is just jingle bells in a different soundfont? i didn't realize that until i started working on the site

the "blookposting rambles" page was inspired by marinehaddock's zine "webshrines for people poisoned by microblogging". i thought the idea of copying my genuine rambles to the site was silly (even if uncomfortably candid) and i had fun replicating the styles of the sites i use (it was mostly copy-pasting from inspect element, but still)

blooky only has so much furniture (damn, you live like this?), so i got the idea last night to make a "second floor" for my more oc-related stuff. i'll edit blooky's room to include some stairs up, i guess, and i'll make a room image for my oc (i'll just rip the furniture from elsewhere in the game, i guess. worried about the color palettes matching though...)

i also want to make the homepage "cleaner", for lack of a better word. feels too serious and slightly messy as i'm writing...

things are looking worse for tumblr, so i might start being more active on here. hopefully tumblr won't die, but the things i'm hearing do not sound great

i've been looking a lot more into dreamwidth today. it seems like a really nice place, i love the extra visibility and filtering features! unfortunately it doesn't mean much if none of my friends are here ):